It seems to me that at certain times communication can be overrated. When you try to talk to a friend and give them advice that would generally make their life so much easier yet they don't take it AND continue to complain about no answers to their "sad situation" it makes you want to pull your hair out. Sometimes its better to nod and just say the things they want to hear. It'll definitely save from having to argue with a friend about something that will undoubtedly be completely inane six months from now.
Speaking of pulling hair out, I am having a bout of alopecia. That's great, thanks so much universe. If you unaware of what it is, its a form of hair loss, where you lose in hair in round patches. It can affect anywhere on the body but for now seems mostly constrained to my head, which of course means my hair looks kind of funny right now. The treatment sucks, because you have to get these shots of anti inflammatory injected directly into the infected areas. There is no known cause or sure fire cure, the dermatologist said it could take anywhere from 2 months to a year to see improvement. Most cases it does go into some remission and hair grows back normally....until then, the hair growing back in the areas is white....yes, not grey, WHITE. All I can do is laugh and deal but really, the thing I vainly like the most about myself is f'n letting me down.
It's hard to believe its actually harder to date and have less drama as you get older. I swear relationships and flirting did not come with so much disclaimer as it seems to as I age. I sort of wish I'd just settled and married 10 years ago and didn't have to deal with this, I've lost belief in ever actually being with someone who is "made for me" because in honesty the girl who was made for me, I've met and we were a disaster. I know she's a soul mate but she's not one that I could live a life with in this existence. I jsut want a normal, nice girl, to be a partner and share things with. I dont need "gaga love" (I'm not talking Lady Gaga), just someone who can be normal for more than a few minutes without losing their marbles over things that don't need to be made so complicated. Maybe I'm jsut destined to be single forever. It's sad to say but I feel it more every day.
I notice more and more with every passing sunny day, that I do get quite the high off the yellow sun. I'm thinking I will one day need to live a life on a secluded beach somewhere. Maybe then i'll find an island girl who doesn't speak English and I wont have to worry about dealing with drama or at least if there is any, I won't know about it because I won't have a clue what she's saying.
Ignorance really can be bliss....